There was a time in my life where I participated in emotional behavior. I would go shopping if I was happy. I would go shopping if I was upset. I only needed half of an excuse to shop. I would eat comfort food if I was upset. Surprisingly, I did not turn to comfort food when I was happy. I wonder what that means, if anything. Maybe it means nothing.
In the past, when someone upset me, I would retaliate. Sometimes aggressively. Sometimes passive aggressively. Invariably, I would have a sarcastic or snide word or two to say in response to an offense. There was no turning the other cheek. When I was a teenager, my mother told me that my mouth would be the death of me. I remember that day as if it were yesterday. I reflect on that statement when I am tempted to share a few choice words after someone has stepped over the line. I also think about what James 1:19 says, “Be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath.” I am thankful that God delivered me from emotional behavior. God is the only one who can give deliverance. I have no need to repent for sharing those few choice words and exacerbating a bad situation.
Last week was a particularly trying week. Every single day was a testament of how far God has brought me. In my career as an attorney, I am accustomed to advocating zealously for my clients while I am in court. I have to fight for justice for my clients on a regular basis. After my hearings are done, I can say with certainty that I left it all in court. In my personal life, I do not like to treat people like I treat my legal adversaries. There is a certain way that I have to treat my legal adversaries. I am dedicated to fighting against injustice, especially when that injustice is directed at me. It’s not personal, just business. When I have to put on my lawyer hat while dealing with people in my personal life, people’s feelings get hurt. The existence of injustice requires opposition. It’s not personal or emotional, just business. Now that the week is over, I can take off my lawyer hat until I return to court to fight for justice for my clients.
That emotional Crystal is dead. “In Christ, I am a new creation.” Be blessed. Remain encouraged.